This is not the blog I set out to write when I woke up this morning, but this is life, and I think we all know that things can change in an instant. So, the tone of this post is an aside from my usual ramblings. They will return tomorrow, but today is different.
As cliché as it sounds, things really are sent to test us. And not just us, but everyone around us, and it is so important not to judge how people deal with these tests individually. What is important is providing support, where it’s needed, and distance, when it’s not.
Now I am not religious in the slightest (don’t get me wrong I haven’t made this decision in life without assessing both sides of the argument), and I therefore do not mean any offence to anyone who believes that there is somebody out there deciding our path, in fact I admire you for having this belief. But when days like today happen, I just want to shout up to the sky “what the f**k is wrong with you?” and more importantly “why?”. Why is it the good people? The best people? The people that deserve everything and more? Why is it them that get the shit deal in life? Because you know they can deal with it? Because you know they can fight it? Bollocks.
And then you can’t help but think to yourself how lucky you are to have what you have. To be able to get up every morning and do the mundane things in life like nipping out to get milk, or doing a bit of internet shopping, just because you can. And then you think, how selfish am I for even thinking about me and how lucky I am? How is that fair?
What upsets me the most is thinking, does it have to take something bad to happen for that support to be there? Should we show more support to our loved ones all the time, just in case? Or should we just make the most of every day, surrounding ourselves with people that we just ‘know’ are the right people? Who knows.
All we do know is that this is life. Sometimes it is the best. Sometimes it is shit. We have to face each day and deal with the hand that is dealt us and treasure the time we have.
‘We’re all going to die. We don’t get much say over how or when, but we do get to decide how we’re going to live. So, do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out, and decide.’